What If the Disappointment Was Justice?
We often call our pain someone else’s doing and their pain God’s justice. Honest self-reflection asks us to examine that double standard.
Have you ever heard someone say, “Maine apna faisla Rab ke upar chhor diya hai. Wahi ab faisla karega”—I have left my case to God; He will decide now? I often hear this when a long-standing rift divides two people or families.
There is a strange double standard in the way we understand disappointment. When something painful happens to us, we see only the will and actions of other people. When something similar happens to them, we readily call it the justice—or even the wrath—of God.
Sometimes God shows us, through consequence, that we may have been wrong. Yet instead of examining our actions and decisions, we treat the outcome only as something others have done to us. We miss the possibility that disappointment itself may be a wake-up call.
We say, “I will be patient and wait for justice.” But what if justice is what has already happened to us? What if my disappointment is not merely a delay before justice, but part of the justice I refuse to recognize?
The human mind protects itself cleverly. It can produce hundreds of reasons to blame others and thousands of justifications for its own behavior. The only way through is to look into the mirror and have an honest conversation with yourself.
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